Apologies and Reflections…

Florence… I did get there!

So, what can I say, nothing I suppose, except that it has been an extrodinarly long amount of time since my fingers last touched computers keys. It feels somewhat odd coming back to blogging, I am embarressed by my absence, the longer the gap the more awkward it became to come back.

Since the last posting, accounting for days 3 and 4 of my European motorcycle trip, things have obviously moved on. I returned to England, Britstol as it so happened, on September 24th 2019 (how weird that sounds, 2019) having covered 4,712 of the most wonderous miles. It was everything I hoped it would be, simple, eye opening and in parts breathtakingly beautiful.

Venice….and here

I had the best intentions to commit to writing everyday about my travels but the journey overtook me and I got lost in it. It was simply all encompassing, too much living it to break out and write about it. I hope, that over a period of time, I may still recount tales of some of the places, faces and experiences I encountered.

I set about last year looking to change my life, break clear off and away from everything that did not add postivley; shred the stress, find my happy and live it and love it. There were many false starts but, even though at times I did doubt the santiy of what I was doing, change it did. As the trip progressed, life reduced to its simplest form and I began to find out not only who I am but, more importantly I think, what I am also about.

Short stop at the Colosseum

One of the things I did learn on my journey is that I am not ready to return to a 9-5 exsistance, I am done with those days, purely for my own sanity I need to find another way to earn my keep in the world. The other thing I discovered is my love of History. There is something fascinating to me as to what has gone before us and how that has shaped what we experience now. So, as I travelled around I made the decision that as I have made the break from working for a living I would take a History degree. It is something I have always talked about and the time was right to give it a go.

After a couple of frantic phone calls, endless days completing endless forms, arguments with Student Finance as to why I don’t exist on Government records and could therefore not receive a loan (more about that another time) , I was offered and accepted a place at the University of West England, Bristol, on a BA Hons History degree.

And that kind of brings us up to date, I will fill in all the gaps in blogs to come, but suffice to say that the life of a student is much more difficult than I thought it was going to be. I am, I have discovered, not very discplined in my approach to study. Oh well!

My first day at the University of West England (UWE)

Now the apology. One other thing I have discovered is how very bad I am at continuing friendships. It is something I have struggled with all my life. Why, I am not sure, it may have something to do with always being on the move.? My father was in the R.A.F and I myself was in the Royal Navy for a while and as a consequence have moved around a lot. There is something about moving on that triggers a shut down on past freindships, it’s nothing personal it’s just the way I am wired I guess.

I have one amazing friend who has always been so important to me and I am embarrassed that I have let that freindship lapse. I have had little contact with her since leaving on my trip and even though I have returned to Bristol have failed to get in contact with her.

I hope she reads this, I hope that we can get back to where we were, for friends and family are probably two of the most important things a person needs in this world. As the gaps increased in communciating with my friend, I just began to feel embarassed and awkward about getting back in contact with her. And before you know it there’s no communicating at all and time slips away. I will do my best to reverse all that’s been done.

Until the next time….

At the top of a Swiss Alps mountain pass, life is good!

Love and hugs

Els xx

3 Comments Add yours

  1. errantmoon says:

    Hey, you’re back! 😀 Can’t wait to hear about your travels and…UNI…that’s fantastic!
    I really hope you manage to get back in touch with your friend and she can see that you’ve been doing exactly what you should have been…living your life (and loving it 🤣). You have been courageously broadening your horizons…more people should try it.

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  2. Thanks errantmoon, hope you’re well, love the blog your writing has a real style to it 😊

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  3. Don’t worry about old friends. The next time you see them, they will still be old friends.

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